Mother's Day

The other morning as I was driving to work, I began contemplating this Mother's Day.

Last year, I vividly remember standing in church with tears streaming down my face. Megan Grace was still here with us yet we knew it would be the only Mother's Day we would share with her on this side of Heaven.

This year is again very different. As I ponder Mother's Day this year, I teeter between longing for the daughter who is not here with us while holding out hope for the daughter we are expecting later this year.

Such a twisted ball of emotions all being housed within my heart and soul. Through the coming years I am sure I will continue to figure out how to reconcile these feelings for now though they kind of just reside as polar opposites forever playing a game of mental tug of war.

Happy Mother's Day to all of the wonderful Mother's out there especially the ones who woke up as I did this morning trying to balance such opposing feelings.